youcannotfindpeacebyavoidinglife

9:52PM - ha!! Not (quite) Daphne.

You Are the Very Gay Velma!

She might not even realize it... But Velma is all about Daphne... not Fred!

10:05AM - This country scares me

Then he parks his wagon to join a huddle of shoppers surrounding a hard-faced spokeswoman from Valkyrie Arms who's extolling the virtues of the Olympia, Wash.-based arms maker's new product, the Valkyrior 556 Rotary Gun.

"It's .223-caliber, six barrels, basically you're looking at a hand-cranked mini-gun," she says.

The man asks, "What's the rate of fire?"

"Just as fast as you can crank it," she replies. "We just shipped a load of these babies to civilian security contractors in Iraq for convoy protection. When I go to sleep tonight, I'll dream of towel heads splattering all over the place."

"We need to ship a few to the border and start splattering Mexicans," he says.

12:13PM

11:58AM - my insides are jumping up and down and screaming their heads off

OK, I am feeling the need to express the seriousness of the situation.
If I miss this I will surely die. All the way dead.
If you love me you will a) help me remember b)come with me

Castro is having sing-a-long GREASE December 15 - 21...!!!

I wonder if I can buy tickets NOW.

3:10PM - Thanks Rob

In 1986, an accident at the Chernobyl power plant in the Ukraine caused a nuclear meltdown. Radioactive waste spewed into the air, making the area uninhabitable. Twenty years later, humans are still absent, but wildlife is thriving. Native populations of badgers, wild boars, and deer have multiplied, and species that had disappeared before the disaster, like the lynx and eagle owl, have returned in abundance. Birds are even nesting in the steel and concrete "sarcophagus" built over the exploded reactor. This is not to say that everything's peachy. There are many problems lingering from the original devastation. I propose to you, Aries, that the situation in Chernobyl is a metaphor for something in your personal life. A place within you that endured a trauma has rebounded surprisingly, though it's still wounded. Take inventory, then raise the ante on the healing process.

10:29AM - chubbettes

I'm perplexed...I can't think of any fat girls who are a bit smaller than me...say 14-16, to will my cute clothes to. Can you?

Just cleaned out the closet and drawers and decided to let go of a couple of things that I've been holding onto because a) I spent too much money on them to give them to goodwill b)I might lose 20 pounds c) they're cute d)they still have the tags on them and I feel guilty.

NO MORE!!

So, if you, or someone you know would like some clothes from me, let me know.

8:48AM

36 (or so) hours of silence.
Dearly loved ones.
Queer women.
Sitting and walking.
Creatures.
Naked swimming.
Swinging.
Kindness and love.
Yoga.
Yummy food.
No longing.
No judgement.
Deep sleep.
I want to be there now.

I feel so good today. Calm and alive and grateful and enough.

8:53AM

8:37AM - ugh

There is ONE BIG way in which the quality of my life will increase when I buy a house.

I am intoxicated by thinking of the time and energy I will save by doing laundry at home. Hours spent thinking, moaning, procrastinating, writing about it here, lugging, driving, waiting, lugging again, refolding, etc. etc.


OK, OK, I'm going now.

7:49AM - Russia is big and so is China.

I'm a teacher, I'm a fan of Howard Gardner, we don't use the "s" (stupid) word in class. AND the president of this country is a babbling idiot.

Just in case you weren't sure...read this: What DOES our president say to other world leaders when he doesn't realize the mic is still on?

1:00PM - I can't even look at it....

It's crooked and I HATE crooked. Like nails on a fucking chalkboard; my insides are screaming. I want to break something.

9:47AM - i know i'm going to bleed when...

these are the lyrics on repeat play... (Hormones are dramatic)

Misguided Angel
Cowboy Junkies

I said "Mama, he's crazy and he scares me
But I want him by my side
though he's wild and he's bad
and sometimes just plain mad
I need him to keep me satisfied"

I said "Papa, don't cry cause it's alright
And I see you in some of his ways
Though he might not give me the life that you wanted
I'll love him the rest of my days"

Misguided angel hangin' over me
Heart like a Gabriel, pure and white as ivory
Soul like a Lucifer, black and cold like a piece of lead
Misguided angel, love you 'til I'm dead

I said "Brother, you speak to me of passion
You said never to settle for nothing less
Well, it's in the way he walks,
it's in the way he talks
His smile, his anger and his kisses"

I said "Sister, don't you understand?
He's all I ever wanted in a man
I'm tired of sittin' around the T.V. every night
Hoping I'm finding a Mr. Right"

Misguided angel hangin' over me
Heart like a Gabriel, pure and white as ivory
Soul like a Lucifer
Black and cold like a piece of lead
Misguided angel, love you 'til I'm dead

He says "Baby, don't listen to what they say
There comes a time when you have to break away"
He says "Baby there are things we all cling to all our life
It's time to let them go and become my wife"

Misguided angel hangin' over me
Heart like a Gabriel, pure and white as ivory
Soul like a Lucifer
Black and cold like a piece of lead
Misguided angel, love you 'til I'm dead

Current mood: blah

11:31AM - oh my...I kinda want it

Ran across this knife rack while looking for luggage.

11:14PM

May you be filled with loving kindness,
and let good deeds be your prayers.
Walk softly on the earth, it is your mother.
Listen and collaborate.

8:24AM - 4th of July

( Teaching 7th grade is a huge responsibility. Not one that I think I could assume all year. They're REALLY beginning to think for themselves (or not). Yesterday, I presented them with a few ideas to think about before they went on their merry way to BBQs, firework shows, and a holiday which celebrates independence and freedom. Most of them didn't even realize why/what the 4th of July is. We talked about various civil rights movements, equality and then focused on the events which led to the Civil Rights Act of 1964...nearly 200 years after the Declaration of Independence was signed. We talked about personal responsibility and dissent and then I showed them a movie about the Children's March in Birmingham, which finally pushed Kennedy into addressing segregation. It was important to me that they left the class knowing that dissent can come in many forms and from ANY person...I really think we cripple kids by  )

9:38PM

I have the BEST bestfriend in the world. That's all I wanted to say.

8:28PM - camping

sunshine, river-swimming, campfires and burnt marshmallows. Foot rubs and cuddling. Deep sleep. Laughing horses. Canoe follies and outdoor naps.

It was a good weekend.

2:28PM - too much to do...moving into paralyzation

I
would
pay
money
to
have
someone
here
right
now
to
keep
me
company
and
on
task
while
I
work.

7:29AM

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8:15PM

"If you cannot see God in all, you cannot see God at all."

--Yogi Bhajan